Bridging Evolution into Foundation has been an interesting journey. I went from wondering if God even existed to wanting to hear Him speak to me — that’s wild, but I’m here for it.
This midpoint feels uncertain, and I really Need this God Thing to Work. Treating Him like I treat my husband and my kids — talking to Him the same way — has helped me stay consistent in these Early Stages. But everything outside of that feels unsettling and completely out of my control and letting the Beginning Do What Beginnings Do is harder than I expected. I keep fighting the urge to do something to move this relationship along… I don’t even know what, just something.
Note to self: the power to do nothing is a thing.
This anxious energy keeps me woozy, but I can’t ignore what I’ve already experienced. That’s what keeps me focused on going with the flow. Going with the flow helps me with Learning to Trust the Quiet, because I need to see how God actually works in my life. And with that said, it makes sense to just Show Up as I Am — it’s ridiculous to avoid anything with someone who already knows everything about you.
It’s like these photos I’ve been posting — I don’t love them. I know I can do better, but they’re part of my journey. The beginning. The early stages. Figuring It Out as I Go is teaching me to have patience with my process. Getting discouraged because things aren’t how I want them, or because the process isn’t easy, could send me straight into self‑sabotage and cancel out what I could become.
I think I’m worth the fight. And I hope this uncertainty becomes a layer in the foundation I’m building.
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