What a journey.
Closer to the beginning of this theme I vented about how it seemed like since I said yes to surrendering life has given me it’s best. One conflict after another stemming from everywhere possible, home, work, even within myself. But going through all of this has taught me how to surrender everything I was dealing with to God. Don’t get me wrong, I did what I could that was within my control, but for the parts that weren’t – I gave them up.
Surrender has taught me to adjust my expectation and with that I’ve learned that if I want to be intentional about getting this right I need to understand that God doesn’t work on my time even if I have good intentions. Walking with God means being okay with what I don’t know. Because if He wanted to keep me in the loop of everything 1. I wouldn’t learn anything and 2. what would we need faith for?
Now I understand what the old folks meant when they would talk about walking by faith, because it’s truly a journey. There’s no destination to faith, but levels. It’s not as visible as the situations that I go through, but it’s present enough in my life now that it can affect my situations because now I’m not leaning and depending on what’s outside of me.
And it feels so good!
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