Working faith into my life has been liberating. It stretched me in places that made the process feel hard at first, but ended up being very good for me.
Looking back over this God journey a lot of things have happened that I wouldn’t say were ideal by Joi’s standards. I mean who picks learning to trust in quiet or feeling nomadic between life phases.
Nobody.
It bothered me when things were outside of my control, because that meant I couldn’t fix it. That was a BIG struggle for me. God and I had multiple conversations consisting of me saying how I felt about what was going on, what I’d like to see happen, but being ok with whatever he decided. And then some days the conversation would be me saying, “God, I really am surrendering this problem to you, I just needed to vent. I trust you.” That taught me how to be comfortable with uncertainty because literally, that’s what walking with God has felt like – uncertainty.
I’m woozy but I love it here.
All the things that didn’t feel good in the moment felt great at the end. Learning from what I’ve been through and going through uncomfortable times to become a stronger person and being who God wants me to be is everything.
I’m happily exhausted.
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