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Surrender Doesn’t Follow My Calendar
There are moments when I get so focused on the process — the schedule, the timing, the order, the “supposed to” — that I forget why I’m doing any of this in the first place. Today I caught myself trying to keep up with a calendar I created… instead of keeping up with the God…
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Somewhere Between Peace and “What Is This?”
Oh my goooooooooooooooooooood. Ever since I said I was going to go with this surrender thing, it’s been one thing after another. I’m mature enough to know that despite my discomfort right now, I’m still going in the right direction — but still Joi enough to know that this is some bullshit. The only good…
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Whew, This Part Right Here
Imagine riding a ten‑speed with no access to the pedals or handlebars. You’re going up hills, down hills, hitting curves and traffic, yet somehow you’re balanced and still moving forward. That’s what all that quietness and uncertainty felt like for me. The struggle to do nothing and stay consistent with how God and I started…
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What Was Growing in the Quiet
Dare I say it — I’m saying it. I have a relationship with God. I don’t know why that’s such a wow for me. I don’t go to church and I don’t read my Bible, but I have a relationship with God — tuh. Our communication has become a lot clearer. When I come in…
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What This Journey Is Teaching Me
My relationship with God lives in a coasting rhythm. I’m working on not overthinking the details or the uncertainty of starting this relationship, so I try to keep my mind blank on purpose. I’m present, but if I start thinking too much, I stop the thoughts quickly. I started this off by letting things happen…
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Learning To Trust the Quiet
I didn’t expect my relationship with God to spill into everything else in my life – especially my communication. I’m starting to get used to not hearing anything back, but I’m still talking to Him every day. I’m actually kind of glad it worked out this way. I wanted consistency – the same way I…