What Was Growing in the Quiet

Dare I say it — I’m saying it.

I have a relationship with God.

I don’t know why that’s such a wow for me.

I don’t go to church and I don’t read my Bible, but I have a relationship with God — tuh.

Our communication has become a lot clearer.

When I come in contact with alignments from our conversations, I know that’s Him.

Sometimes I hear Him in what feels like my own consciousness, but I remain unsure until I see or hear a confirmation.

I think one of the most important lessons I’ve learned from our communication is that His answers do not look like my prayers.

Learning how to be comfortable in the uncertainties has taught me faith.

I have faith in God.

It’s mind-blowing that I started off just trying to build a foundational relationship with Him, just for Him to not only do the same for me, but also build my faith in Him in the process.

I didn’t see that coming.

All of the uncertainties, fighting urges to do nothing — it was for a reason unbeknownst to me until now.

This journey is so dope.

I have faith — and I’m grateful.

But I’m not pretending to know what comes next.

I’m just paying attention.

I started this journey trying to build a foundation with God.

I didn’t realize He was building something in me at the same time.

Faith wasn’t the goal — it was the outcome.

And now I’m learning how to live it,

slowly,

honestly,

in the quiet.

If this season taught me anything,

it’s that God grows me in the places I don’t have language for yet.

So I’m letting faith unfold at its own pace,

trusting that He’ll show me what it looks like in my life one moment at a time.