Well once again I’m at another midpoint in my journey, and I have to admit it’s hitting completely different than it did when I was evolving in Evolution or establishing my foundation in Foundation.
Whew, this part right here — surrender — has challenged me in ways I didn’t know possible. So much that I’ve had to journal specifically about it.
What I had in mind is now a blank sheet of paper — not because I’m empty, but because surrender wiped out the script I tried to write. The strength of a made‑up mind is present, but not really supportive. Some days I feel settled, and other days I’m like… what is this? And then there are days where I’m overthinking it so much I don’t want to think at all.
But if I’ve learned nothing at this point of my journey, it’s that alignment with God is everything. I can’t put my finger on it, but there’s something about not being aligned in a journey like this — you know it instantly. Alignment has felt just as important as surrender lately.
Maybe because this midpoint feels different — I’m not just surrendering circumstances; I’m surrendering the version of me that thought she had it figured out.
Perhaps because I’m so hungry to get it right. Or because I’m looking, listening, and reviewing to make sure I didn’t miss anything.
Before I say another word, I would like to just chill in the position I’m in now. Yes, it’s quiet and it’s definitely giving deserted, but I’ll be in the dry place that’s still growing me until I get what I came for.
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