I’m like…
What does a relationship with God even look like?
Why did I make that promise?
And why does it feel like everything depends on me keeping my word?
…and then I’m like…
Living with no peace and a limited perspective was not it. I have to figure this out, because the thought of going backwards is more unsettling than walking toward the complete unknown.
So — I’m doing this.
I really need this God thing to work, and it has to feel as normal as my relationship with my husband and my kids. Daily communication and journaling again seems like a good way to kick this off. The way I see it, if I talk to God daily, eventually I’ll learn how to recognize when He’s talking back to me. At least… that’s what makes sense.
You would think someone raised in church all her life would have a better understanding of how this goes — but I don’t. I actually have so many questions about what I was taught growing up. The only thing that feels solid right now is that God loves me.
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