Imagine a room – a snapshot of chaos. Clothes are draped over the furniture, coffee mugs sit on the table, and papers are scattered like leaves in the wind. Slowly, change begins. It doesn’t seem to be as many clothes on the furniture as it was before and one of the coffee mugs that was there earlier, is definitely missing now. With the room representing my cluttered mind, this is what my life has been feeling like since I decided enough was enough.
Things seem to be in focus now. I have the urge to make sure everything in my life is in order. My finances, how I spend my time, measurable goal-setting all feels like a necessity versus something I’ll get to one day. In the midst of me trying to get my life together I discovered my purpose. If you can believe this, my purpose has been with me all of my life but it was so intertwined in my normal I didn’t even notice it. The best part is that I’ve never felt so comfortable in my skin than I do right now. It makes me feel like I’m enough and free as a bird flying for the first time.
I keep wondering if this is God?
Is this God?
I hesitatingly think that it is God. What else is there? No one I know or love have ever made me feel so at peace that I didn’t feel at least a tad anxious when thinking about things that worried me. I’m waking up with peace, going to bed with peace and I’m cool on some situations that I ordinarily would’ve felt the need to set someone straight about.
It’s God.
Sigh. There, I said it. I don’t know why that was a thing for me to say. Maybe because that makes God not only real, but real in my life. As much as I would like to investigate how I feel about all of this I told God if he told me what his hype was and why I needed him in my life I would be interested in starting a relationship with him – so let’s do this.
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