Socially, things don’t feel quite organic as they used to. My perspectives have started shifting to hobbies, investments and pursuing new experiences. Most of the people I spend a lot of time with are still caught up in the same things we’ve always been on. Is there anything wrong with that – I don’t think so, but I know it’s no longer for me.
I’ll admit, this shift in perspective had me auditing my relationship’s purposes. Are they adding value to me or are they depleting me? It was like a social pruning process, some people had to be cut away so that I could grow. Even though this internal shift was my secret, I didn’t hold back from telling some acquaintances that I wasn’t the same person they’d met—I’d changed, trying to be a better Joi. I’m not sure why I told them that because I definitely wasn’t going to go into what I’d been dealing with, but for whatever reason I said it.
Chile, those mofos parted like the Red Sea on my ass (lol). What’s funny is, I’m really not sure how to feel about it. Some people did surprise me, but the give-a-damn didn’t run too deep. I wasn’t mad at anyone for how they responded because that experience taught me who they were in my life which is what I wanted. I realized that some of my relationships thrived on the old version of me, and my growth meant adjusting their place in my life. I also learned to embrace the reality that just because I’m evolving, not every connection will evolve with me—and that’s okay.
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