I had what’s probably the only serious conversation I’ve ever had with God and afterwards, at some point my life started hitting differently. From how I look at things to who I interacted with, there seemed to be a subtle shift. It’s crazy because I’m still not sure if what I’m experiencing is real or if my desperation for change has me tripping.
I mean really, God in your life. What does that even mean? What would God in my life even look like? Every time the church doors were open I was there and I can’t answer either one of those questions. What I know about God is by way of something or someone. With that said, it would be fair for me to say I never showed real interest in God unless I wanted something from him – until now, I think.
With so much uncertainty, I feel the need to stick to what I know is true. The truth is nothing else I’ve tried has worked and another fact is, I don’t have anything to lose. So, in the meantime, I’m not changing anything about myself, routine, what I do or who I do it with. I’ll attentively ride the waves on this thing and see where it takes me.
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